Tired, Shag, Sad

i jus reach home from the embassy..tiring thou.. i bought myself breakfast ... ya am going to slp later on.. most prob will be waking up late.. i din want to past the afternoon.. as usual.. no pple is at home.. mum's working.. cant imagine.. i din slept for 2 days.. y m i still not tired.. i'm so stressed up.. after i submit all my doc to the embassy.. they gave me a collection cum wating for approval letter.. tat gonna be 2 mths time.. 2 mths from now... meaning... july.. july i fax back the letter to cisco ... gonna wait another 2 weeks or so.. august.. that's a long waiting time.. duhz.. meisin asked me to work back at the pub.. but why.. i hate nite life now.. guessed i'm tired of tat.. while waiting for my turn over at the embassy.. i began my thoughts for him again.. i simply detest tat kinda feeling.. m i a loser or what? this is making me sound like i'm despo fer his return.. i gave a thought.. meisin reprimand me too for my foolish thoughts... here's wad she says.

huixing, even if u are back together with him.. things would still be same.. where got bf like tat 1.. at 1st wana go after u everytime go down ur pub find u and wait for u.. buy rochor dao huey, or even more gud lat.. can come down all the way to pass u 1 FRUITIP.. den go home.. and when he got u by his side...and u fucking care for his thoughts.. dint want him to be so mafan and fetch and send u around.. u start to go find him by your side.. and u go home by yourself too.. u scare he waste his petrol all the way back jurong.. but he can go rounding wif his friends... he work 7 days a week.. dint even have 1 day for u.. even movie .. u gotta kick up a fuss to let him realised tat u are being neglect in order to bring u out just for a movie.. when u bring him to come and meet us, he say your friend till a worthless cent.. and u gotta put up his attitude.. so, huixing. tell me what's he got your likiling anymore? its not worth at all.. y wana put up with all this shit issue.. he can do his own things without telling u.. when u angry bout why he doesnt share his feeling for u.. u confront him.. what u got back? silence.. he's a Zen master.. to him silence solves everything.. u aint naive anymore... but jus wake up ur idea of having him anymore.. u might be loving him.. but think far.. wont be ending good thou.. y not end it faster.. u still got friends around... because of 1 word from tat he doesnt like u to work in a pub, u quited.. u lost your income. now u can start finding which carpark grass is nicer to eat .. and start eating grass now ok!

this is the 1st time i ever heard a friend telling me this.. i m stunned.. den i realised i was not alone.. but i need constance scolding.. den i'll remember and stop thinking bout him.. gemini aint this kinda character.. above tat paragraph is wad i can remember.. ya for now.. i duno i still remember after i woke up.. so.. i better blog it down for later sad time.. i go slp ler.. i'm tired.. ya.. really..

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