Bad day...

well... i was deployed to this post called East Underpass.. Non-aircon... dirty smoke and dusty winds from aircraft which jus dock in... my whole body was like... Sticky pad... sigh... but i quite enjoy tat post as its near T1 canteen.. lol... Banana Split... oOoo... can compared to swensen.. wif just $2.80... yummy... worth it thou.. i m really xhausted... u know u know.. every mth.. sigh... feeling moody all day long.. lucky my partner was great... as long there is 4 person at that post... we can rotate our break.. all the way rotate 12 hrs.. 1 tissue wipe my face... is dusty 1 luh... argh... again... i hate my patrol sup.. ... i've been dying fer my bond to finish... Almost mc this morning... but told myself to maintain my mc rate if not i'll would have been defaulted..
And ya..came to think of it.. i've been thinking bout dervin this noon... i guessed it was just a short term thingy.. if a person really likes u.. it woulnt have been like this...
i cant like a person now luh... it would only make myself difficult... no time to meet... reach hm see the bed already semi-sleeping mode.. wake up rush like mad dog... den work also quite busy.. cannot sms always.. so ar... REN... huixing..u will meet the rite one.. Endurance is the path towards success.. this kuku sentence is mentioned by 1 of my kuku colleague.. in the end.. he awol ... lol..i'm dead tired... gonna pom pom after this post.. and Mask... essential need everytime i end this kinda of post..
i'm kinda scare if i change job.. my money will be less.. and cant really contribute much to my mum and house...but i'm glad that my mum dint discourage me... instead she told me.. work for job u like ... but pay cannot too pathatic luh.. my next job... smelly smelly also must take home 1.8.. presently is ard 1.9 to 2.4..tat really depends on my mc rate.. wif this pay.. i slogged like hell..no freedom.. cant even promise my friend for a kopi session.. argh..alot of CANNOT luh..is like.. i'm still feeling ok when i'm at work... but once after finished work and tat journey from ariport back to jurong.. i'm like dead tired... den i stood up my friend again.. recently..i quarrelled wif my galfriend.. she say alot of this and that la.. say when she wanted someone to talk to call me den i always say call back but nv call.. den pekcek den volcano erupt... lol.. ayyyy... i think we need some time man... i simply hates the way she behaves when she's drunk...
so many problems.. so little time... work so many hrs.. earn money... so much living commitment... can i have 2 huixing instead... going crazy soon...i want someone by my side.. but i dowan a r/s.. wtf is this.. dilemma... understand??
whats wif me recently...pple whom i met...married la.. attached.. sigh.. u know..my present life really.. sxxxs to core.. messedup... fedup...screwedup... yayay... jus received a call looking for Peiyi..who the f is peiyi.. my phone... sigh..i think.. pager suits me.. gonna apply for leave.. i wan a get away.. i want go bintan.. .