i seems to drift apart.. as everyone seems to concern bout work/school in their life.. i aint got any motivation towards anything in life... i woke up everyday jus right for school, i'm not tired, i'm not lazy.. BUT I DIN WENT SCH IN THE END... i haven done any single shit.. i feel awful when i woke up in the morning.. i have got an fear for tat which i din even know wads it is bout.. i feel like quiting school..

DID U TRIED? DID YOU EVER TRIED? IF YOU DONT THEN DONT SAY YOU EVER TRIED..

these words pierce thru my heart, came from a person which i can confide in.

i wished i din have to pay my bills, i wish my dad will come back and gif me a pat on my shoulder and guide me.. i wished my mum wouldnt have blame me always and stress me what i HAVE TO DO AFTER I GRADUATE, i'm constantly having stress that i shouldnt be having now. and all the bad day she had at work and reaches home and push partly blame to me saying that if i m a SINGAPOREAN!! THINGS WONT BE IN THIS WAY...

i dint have the effort to save for this family, either i have the time to give my mum's a thought, i'm selfish thou.. wadever it can be.. i m really a selfish person straight right to myself, all i could think is how to survive. having that little pay i have to think twice bout wads to have it on. i wanted to spent all my money to jus a ticket and i can freed myself from all these shit.
project " PLS COME SCHOOL TML, YOUR GRP NEEDS YOU FOR THE PRESENTATION" OH.. lyrical! ! i don need that, count me out, I DINT KNOW HOW TO LIE , WHEN A PERSON LIED.. i learnt tat. i'm feeling alone.

" yes! yes! is all u, y cant u achieved better result??? "
" sorry.. not that i dint wanted good result, i jus got no talented from that theory thingy"
" IS BCUZ OF U MADE ME LOSE TAT $450 DEAL TODAY"
" OH REALLY? IS YOUR JOB, AT UR AGE U SHOULD KNOW HOW TO DIFFERENTIATE BETWEEN WORK AND PERSONAL "
" WHER IS ALL THE MONEY U EARN LAST MONTH?, U SPENT THAT FAST?, WHY DINT U PAY UR BILLS???????????? "
" i'm jus a part time.. i dint take any money from u anymore since i started working at bq"
" WHY CANT U JUST FIND A DAY TIME JOB AT OFFICE DURING SAT & SUN ?? "
" i tried.. i reali tried.. look! sat & sun office job, they are having 1.5 pay.. and i'm a student pass holder.. which company is going to employ a student pass holder at their risk? having to pay a person a 1.5 pay which is totally ignorant to their company, i believe they will take their own employee for sure! " m i wrong to say that!!! "
" what are you going to do after you graduate??!!! "
" been planning wanting to continue study.. "
" BUT I GOT $$$ , BUT I WANT U TO STUDY!! "
" WTF?? "
" OR UP TO U, GO FIND A JOB AND LIVE ON URSELF"
" fine.. i can.. but pls don meddle on wad kinda job i'm into, and i bet my job wont disgrace u... "
" K FINE, U SHOULD HAVE GO THE WAY WHICH I CHOSEN FOR YOU, AND IT WONT BE WRONG.. I'M UR MUM, LISTEN TO ME AND LISTEN TO MY LEADING"
" lock me up pls, feed me like a bird, i can rely on you forever, and i wished i nv grow up.. plan for me like i've never grow.. BUT WHEN I FALL.. U PUSHED ALL BLAME TO ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"