Misery

y r u making me felts so fuck up... i thot after everything haf past and we could be like friends chatting in msn... u turn 0ut to be an0ther person which i barely knew... my life's being upside down... i felt freaking guilty fer making tis decision and u done tat fucking lan jiao matter 0ut... u twist it like to me and says U HATE ME, U HATE URSELF, U HATE EVERYONE... am i suppose to take half of the blame ???? even if yes, why cant just let me share whats on ur mind n0w? everything i said is nonsense to u... 0K L00K... LETS measure whats ur defination of NONSENSE... i wan to be nice, i want to be good... but y kept rejecting ... y cant allow ones to make mistake... izit a grave mistake, u really hate me or urself more? did i ask u to do that? i don understand... this time tis min... i'm trying my hard to stay focus to tat lan jiao econs sub.. but y come pm me at tis hr... do i really haf to go back wad i'm like last time? u make me feel tat i gt the hack-care-everything thinking back... yeahz, childish, naive aint i? yes i'm, u say u sick, i say i come down, u say no, den u pm me telling me say u felt pek cek... and so many ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH from u. know h0w it felts? feels like u r drowning and i alrdy throw down the the rope but u duno how to swim towards my rope... u prefer drown to death.. sorry, that's all wad i can do fer now, i tried everything to make u come back just because i felt tat i was partly responsible fer wad had happen. u choose neither way. is ur choice, y not. Most clever is u liao, Most mature is u ler, no pple can win u... go and hide 0k, go and be a drowser everyday. i duno how to elaborate anymore, and i wont keep u in contact anymore, cause ya just draggin me down day by day..since u enjoyed ur life now and i cant take part in it... u making me felt disgusted day by day! Hence raking up of breaking with U!, i believe is a correct choice fer me. i hate u i hate u... to the max..

*calm****
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