Today had 2 subjects for exams.. Productivity & English.. well.. i dint tried my best.. i mean for english still okie ler..

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i sms him this morning, but dint hope fer a reply.. but he replied in the end.. saying he gonna pass me cigarette money.. so i suggest for dinner too.. he say go msia.. eat,petrol than come back sg.. i say ok.. but after awhile.. he says he feel tired.. hrm.. duno how to describe the feeling.. like disappointed.. but.. nah.. its okie.. in the end we met up having dinner at his mum's stall.. so ate and talk bit here & there.. yeahz.. finally i don haf the awkard feeling ler... hrm... ya.. time past realy fast .. dinner.. ends ler. together and his niece we back .. he send me bus stop and ask me to sms him when i got home.. i did.. but he replied "K".
well.. there goes my feeling.. reluctant.. i don dare to tell him my feelings anymore.. scare that he feels stress.. i guess he wont actually have the chance to see this blog le.. cause his com is only for Dota.. : )
Smile, Because he's Happy
maybe we meet lesser.. den my feelings will fade..is like when we chat in msn or sms.. we can be close.. but when meet.. we become more polite towards each other... hrm.. cant capture..
I dint want him to feel that i still like him.. so i actually have to force myself to be cold towards him.. i dare not send concern sms to him anymore..
when i dint sms him.. he will sms and ask me how come i nv sms him the whole day.. why all this feelings is like "Fishing"...let go and fish back..
my heart drop and rose everyday..
Maybe everything is just a game.. is my wishful part.. slowly.. i will learn to let go.. is painful.. but i have too.. : )