Moment of Foolish

As mentioned i went mu yday nite..supposed to be a girl's niteout ya.. i called him up.. " erh, i going mu now", "ok lor" he replied..

hrm.. i went down.. moment i reach.. 1 of my girls already gone.. lol.. i take over .. ha.. guess we 3 drank more den wad we normally does.. sigh..guess after tis post i'll go back and zzz.. i wont pin on him anymore.. cause i made a fool out of myself infront of him this morning at his hse outside.. i got real high and ask daron send me to his hse downstair.. he doesnt want to meet.. but i insisted.. i knew this post definately gonna change the way people sees me.. but.. fuck care..

My mind was really pack with his image when i club.. i know tis is freaking insane..

He opens the door and let me have my SPEECH..i try standing straight.. and tell him " u know i hate myself for having my whole mind full of u..its was supposed to be clubbing nite.. and i end up making a fool for myself.., no one at clubbing attracts my attention.. i cant focus.. i kept on seeing at hp, hoping to receive ur sms.. but to no avail.. :) , i think i really like u.. if nt i wont be doing all this stuffs"

Look guys.. it takes two hand to clap.. he cant reciprocate my likling nor i cant force on these things... this is really the 1st and LAST time i gonna do this type of LOSING face confession.. damn.. i damn hate myself now.. i know we wont be contacting anymore and no more.. after tat i walk back home..

i always have the urge to call/sms him.. but i always turning up the 1st one to sms him.. to stop all this.. i will actually have to make a fool of myself infront of him.. so as to let myself think TWICE before sms him any further.. alright.. now.. msn i also dont dare to log ..good lor.. hao lor.. huixing.. u got wad u want.. :) excellent.. nice one...

at least now my mind is full of paisay-ness rather than missing him..

i'm tired.. really tired.. both physically & mentally

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