I called up sky just now when i suddenly woke up... he's still not yet home.. ya.. he is drunk.. our conversation sucks...i seems to cant understand his job scope more and more... he is fed up of himself and his surrounding... he found an uncle who can talk and communicate with him... tats good to him... as fer me.. i think i'm really being squeeze into smallest corner ever.. ever since i knew him.. or ever since we are together i been dying to drag him out of Superstar.. cause its not a place for him.. my mind's bit blank too.. alright over conclusion is since we both cant understand each other.. pointless to be together.. i'm tired too.. i just hope tat now wad's happening to my family i just hope tat nothing will put me into more worries... our conversation ends up he shouting tat we break... great.. excellent.. we cant last to 2 yrs.. every of my r/s cant last.. after he shouted.. he hung up the phone.. he says he help.. he says he care.. but i never ever sees or hear him telling me maybe i can accompany u at nuh despite his school's at clementi .. he had school only at sat and sun.. i was all alone.. if he thinks tat he can help me by a little bit more money... sky.. pls save it.. from now onward i rather starve den taking yur so called hard earned money.. my mind's being filled up by hatred.. i got fucking toothache now.. wads comes wad goes.. nothing last in this world.. that's how i came to know bout it.. up till all these just happened things.. i guess i wont picked up his call anymore.. nor i'm going back to superstar to work..to both released stress for me and him.. i'm not suitable for him... either wise..

i'm really down to a stage that.. i'm trying to fake everywhere... nobody will understand.. no... no body....