I had a sad Xmas, I felt betrayal . I can't accept it.. I totally can't... I decide to let everything go...
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I, (name), take you (name), to be my (wife/husband), to have and to hold from this day forward, for better or for worse, for richer, for poorer, in sickness and in health, to love and to cherish; from this day forward until death do us part.
The vow u made to forget. I doubt it might be awhile for u to see this. I prefer to let is go. Since I been the 1 stopping u and I realised thing which even I can change no use we will still be a burden. The problem we facing all face by other but since u find life with me is boring I should let u fly. I am pennyless which u at point is selfish. It a blessing nothing tragic happen to me. If it thing I hope whatever let me dead than becoming a burden or live to watch you abandoned me. Which will be likely the latter. like you say love cant compare to everyday live. I change car to better one you say we can work it out. After which tell me no to spend on ur $. Did I really spend? Yes I cant provide u with good food and oversea trip. I live on that little amount of cash I had. But had I ever really ask u for $. All this is u wan good food etc so u treat did I never treat while I can? The vow we take? I thing only in better and rich.
Appreciate that we could communicate in here, please stay annoymous. i feel better in that way.
I didnt forget the vow, nor how we first met. we grew from nothing to something, and i can say this is not a simple 6 years. we keep getting back to each other despite countless of breakoff. I didnt find life boring with you at all.
we have different choices in life. we can choose to live better or otherwise. Your solution to every situation works in only that one step.. Did you really not had spent on my side ? I'm like a rolling machine. i felt. which you can borrow this month and return next month. u feel my exhaustion from that? that i have to keep repeating and naggy.. all i hope is that you can be financially stable. you need me to list down everything here? i prefer not to. ask yourself on your next replying comments. If you ask me Love and bread, i'll choose the latter. Your car, you make me feel like im the one instigating you to buy it.. did i? honestly? Good food Good life - our perception is different. You always ask me to spent less, and save more, did we save anything out of it? even when i say $100 base every month, did we commit to it? Hey.. i didnt want to conquering and deciding on our every needs and chase after every issue. i dont want to be a mummy holding on my son's hand and teach him what to do always. I sometime wished.. i can lie on your shoulders and depend on.. i wan to be little women too.. speaking of which.. in this world, when we have no money, we will have alot in mind, there comes the part of poverty. Why people steal. why people commits crime. thats the root to the problem. back to us. Yes, our love cant be compare to our daily lifes. think about it. we were so loving then.. and when month ends meet.. we have bills to settle. we will have a house eventually. and we both have different roles to it. Can you settle the monthly bills? you said u can .. ok, maybe i assuming too much because it has not happened yet. i cant say i can predict. i might be wrong too.. but you cant even settle your own commitments on time. how can we struggle till then? like i stressed on.. we need to established a financially stablitlity to let our next generation be better. why borne a child when you know you can give the best, or at least better? you said when the situation comes, there will be a way to settle.. May i ask.. (what way? you turn to your parent / sibling? ) i dont like. we are already being looked down. Do you want more? i cant accept.
Gifts - you bought me gifts, im delighted of course! Do you need to add on comments like " see, i bought this for you, where i actually can spent the money on modification of my car" How am i going to continue the next sentence...
Character - you are with this character for like 35 years, i tried using 6 years to change. but to no avail. i have my stuck up attitude too. for that if i WANT this thing, i'll go for it. and you are the type " ahh too ex liao.. how to afford. " dont u have dreams? or m i realistic? whatever things we achieved now, is a contribute to our next generation. Please rmb this. i cant change you. im just too tired.
i should do something to myself, that is love myself more than anyone else. I dont want to live with regrets.
Come back to before u had this STI, talked about 7586 , even before u had this STI, our money issue is already there, what can we improve on this? its like going to the market, we can buy onion but we cannot buy veg. we dont even have any contigency plans. that day u told me you are happy go lucky type. i cant forget this. Do u happy go lucky in your own life, your goals? a family commitment? and your own commitment? Im not ready for a family yet, as i can see whats ahead of us. like my family. I've been through. i dont want to go through again . i wan a better life. if i cant seek in you, i will achieve myself. you ask me why didnt i tell u earlier, and only when we already BTO for a house... i said its because all these years, i thought we could be much much better. i dont want to live in unsettled bills . i dont know will that happen. and i dont want to try my luck either. Do u feel me?
I screwed up only becuase of the house. For you, i think i already did the best i can.
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I, (name), take you (name), to be my (wife/husband), to have and to hold from this day forward, for better or for worse, for richer, for poorer, in sickness and in health, to love and to cherish; from this day forward until death do us part.
The vow u made to forget. I doubt it might be awhile for u to see this. I prefer to let is go. Since I been the 1 stopping u and I realised thing which even I can change no use we will still be a burden. The problem we facing all face by other but since u find life with me is boring I should let u fly. I am pennyless which u at point is selfish. It a blessing nothing tragic happen to me. If it thing I hope whatever let me dead than becoming a burden or live to watch you abandoned me. Which will be likely the latter.
like you say love cant compare to everyday live. I change car to better one you say we can work it out. After which tell me no to spend on ur $. Did I really spend? Yes I cant provide u with good food and oversea trip. I live on that little amount of cash I had. But had I ever really ask u for $. All this is u wan good food etc so u treat did I never treat while I can? The vow we take? I thing only in better and rich.
Dear Annoymous,
Appreciate that we could communicate in here, please stay annoymous. i feel better in that way.
I didnt forget the vow, nor how we first met.
we grew from nothing to something, and i can say this is not a simple 6 years. we keep getting back to each other despite countless of breakoff. I didnt find life boring with you at all.
we have different choices in life. we can choose to live better or otherwise. Your solution to every situation works in only that one step.. Did you really not had spent on my side ? I'm like a rolling machine. i felt. which you can borrow this month and return next month. u feel my exhaustion from that? that i have to keep repeating and naggy.. all i hope is that you can be financially stable. you need me to list down everything here? i prefer not to. ask yourself on your next replying comments.
If you ask me Love and bread, i'll choose the latter.
Your car, you make me feel like im the one instigating you to buy it.. did i? honestly?
Good food Good life - our perception is different. You always ask me to spent less, and save more, did we save anything out of it? even when i say $100 base every month, did we commit to it? Hey.. i didnt want to conquering and deciding on our every needs and chase after every issue. i dont want to be a mummy holding on my son's hand and teach him what to do always. I sometime wished.. i can lie on your shoulders and depend on.. i wan to be little women too..
speaking of which.. in this world, when we have no money, we will have alot in mind, there comes the part of poverty. Why people steal. why people commits crime. thats the root to the problem. back to us.
Yes, our love cant be compare to our daily lifes. think about it. we were so loving then.. and when month ends meet.. we have bills to settle. we will have a house eventually. and we both have different roles to it. Can you settle the monthly bills? you said u can .. ok, maybe i assuming too much because it has not happened yet. i cant say i can predict. i might be wrong too.. but you cant even settle your own commitments on time. how can we struggle till then? like i stressed on.. we need to established a financially stablitlity to let our next generation be better. why borne a child when you know you can give the best, or at least better? you said when the situation comes, there will be a way to settle.. May i ask.. (what way? you turn to your parent / sibling? ) i dont like. we are already being looked down. Do you want more? i cant accept.
Gifts - you bought me gifts, im delighted of course! Do you need to add on comments like " see, i bought this for you, where i actually can spent the money on modification of my car"
How am i going to continue the next sentence...
Character - you are with this character for like 35 years, i tried using 6 years to change. but to no avail. i have my stuck up attitude too. for that if i WANT this thing, i'll go for it. and you are the type " ahh too ex liao.. how to afford. " dont u have dreams? or m i realistic? whatever things we achieved now, is a contribute to our next generation. Please rmb this.
i cant change you. im just too tired.
i should do something to myself, that is love myself more than anyone else. I dont want to live with regrets.
Come back to before u had this STI, talked about 7586 , even before u had this STI, our money issue is already there, what can we improve on this? its like going to the market, we can buy onion but we cannot buy veg. we dont even have any contigency plans. that day u told me you are happy go lucky type. i cant forget this. Do u happy go lucky in your own life, your goals?
a family commitment? and your own commitment? Im not ready for a family yet, as i can see whats ahead of us. like my family. I've been through. i dont want to go through again . i wan a better life. if i cant seek in you, i will achieve myself.
you ask me why didnt i tell u earlier, and only when we already BTO for a house... i said its because all these years, i thought we could be much much better.
i dont want to live in unsettled bills . i dont know will that happen. and i dont want to try my luck either. Do u feel me?
I screwed up only becuase of the house. For you, i think i already did the best i can.
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