july 3rd

Suppose this date will mark the end of us. Another 2 yrs plus of relationship ended over a huge quarrel involves people whom are dearest to me.. I realized I always blog when I had no one to turn to.. Not even to my best friend as we gets older.. No one will be there listening to my "why's , sad, lost feeling" . I had to admit im kinda lost right now as I had no one by my side when im sleeping, no one to listen my usual nonsense .. But luckily I still have my dog! She is just so detestable but loving. We didn't exchange SMS.. Or we shouldn't at all. Come to think of it .. I realized it should be in this way.. Kept telling myself things .... Same old things will be repeated over and over again. My attitude, my anger... My character... It won't works in all kind of relationship. Maybe I should really indulge myself into something that has results proven definately not relationship... How many more 2 years I can afford to spent despite I am getting older year by year.. I don't need marriage cause I've seen one, I don't need boyfriend cause I've had one... I need people whom can really understand me deep down. I am sad. This is for real. Don't know when will I be blogging , but definately will be a better post.