Yday was my birthday ... din went out.. Stayed home.. Sigh..... Year by year .. My bday got dull... And duller .. Is there such words? Qing soon din gave me anything .. Disappointed .. I got a cake from him and heard him saying that it was more cheaper buying at that particular bakery.. I din know how to explain the feelings.. Why.. Since not getting anything ... Can't a bday cake be more special? Last yr still got my name ... I'm not trying to compare...but ... I can feel the difference ... I always been thinking.. Since no effort den don't ... Its very different year by year .. Last yr he said this yr will be a better 1 ..... But things like worsen ... Everything is bout Calculative ... we're going langkawi next mth... I mean its nothing wrong bout browsing the price ... But my whole mind was I wanted a getaway.. Everything is bout both of us for that 3 nights... Sigh..... But den disappointing also.. He wanted to go beach ... But he doesn't swim.. No diving either.. I'm already not lookin forward ... I Duno y ...