Thinking bout going back to work tml making me pissed off.. sigh.. when will this 1 year passed quickly.. i ever gave this thought like.. y not i work super super hard for 2 mths and 3 mths i'll quit, plus returning the Joining Bonus.. well.. y not.. is like giving back what i'm not suppose to get for my own freedom? I guessed i gave myself too much hope.. that everyday i've been telling myself.. Tml will be a better day.. Gosh.. how naive i'm.. at certain stage of life.. one's gotta help himself or herself.. nobody's by your side to look after u.. and then i gave myself another thoughts.. is tat because when i work last time, no matter is in pub or a hotel trainee.. i was not ill-treated at all.. i mean at least, i sensed the WELFARE ok.. duhz.. i was in dilemma. And i thought i gained good friend inside.. but to my mistake.. it was a wronged.. we aint suppose to start out as a liking/ crush thing.. it was suppose to be a g00d g00d friend.. den everything will be alright now.. IF ONLY.. see now.. argh.. the feeling totally sucks a million.. even we sees other now also.. like so complicated.. duhz.. we no longer talks to each other.. even if converse.. its just so.. General.. :/ what happen to our topic last time.. where i can easily confide to u.. and now.. even when we talk.. its just so .. distance.. and