Aimless..

Till today.. i really really understood and cleared that you're no longer by my side anymore, well.. i've been indulging myself into some kinda lifestyle which is no longer what i used to be.. this blog.. i've been bloggin from sky onward till u.. i'm losing myself.. i lost to myself eventually.. maybe this is karma.. ?? ha.. i no longer believe in r/s.. am tired.. i think.. this time.. is not s simple s falling down.. i'm even buried by soil.. don start to miss when u din know how to treasure in the 1st place, dont lead me to your thinking and walk under your sunshine and live to breath with u when u had the intention to let a person go.. y are there so many sorrows around me.. why when a r/s is teared apart and the party could only remember the sadness and not the happy moment? why when you are the significant person in my life and yet all this have to come to an end? we can be successful in everything.. yet r/s .. i've been picking up lately.. bits by bits.. consoling myself of endless nights. I really got to learn cruel.. and i have to.. i have to protect myself so much so that i dint wanted anyone anymore. i've lost someone dearly.. y m i dint have the thinking of my age.. i should be happy.. go out and play every night and come back home slp, need not worry about everything or anything.. when u become selfish.. u forgot that there is a person who always think of u 1st and put u in piority, Quarrels.. in r/s .. u really think i so free to pick a quarrel and make myself angry because i knew u wouldnt care at all? Everything started to change after u got ur 2A. we once had small goals, small aims.. and once we believe that if we head towards that goals and aims.. we can strive together.. so much promises.. and so much hurt we got back.. i'm lost, yet i can stand up alone to face it.. getting to know that the fact is getting clearer and clearer .. we are impossible anymore. i'm too tired to pin on your calls/sms every night. Just when i wanted to slp, i whisper to myself a good night to u. :) Smile, cause he's happy.